Doing things different

So I swore I'd never be a yo-yo dieter. I am. So how do I pull everything together, that I've learnt, into something that works for me. I'm a little tired of throwing my money away on one size fits all schemes. I'm going to have a go at writing my own program. I've figured out what motivates me. And it's not the 'I need to be healthy' or 'I need to get fit' line of thinking. It's a pure and simple desire to be a size 10. That's MY holy grail. So I need to make changes, set some goals and do things in a way that I know I can achieve. Measuring my success by a number on scales doesn't work for me. I have a week where the number doesn't move much, or god forbid goes up, and something snaps in me. I also know I'm sneaky. I know my weigh in days, so I eat like shit for the few days after the weigh in, then starve and stress for the three days leading up to the weight in day. EVERY TIME. So, how do I measure success in MY programme? How am I going to set goals, and reward myself for reaching milestones, when I can't measure those points in a traditional 'number sense? I want the SIDE EFFECT of my program to be weight loss. Not the focus. So I'm setting myself a bank of changes I need to make to my lifestyle, small, manageable chunks. Thinks I can change without thinking, that will have a side effect of wight loss. 1. Stop the afternoon binge.  Either have a coffee, go to the gym, or choose fruit. 2. Portion size. Plate up, on a small plate. 3. Drink more water.  Take my water bottle to school to sip. 4. Chips on the weekend MUST be served in the small green chip bowl.  One serve. Savor the flavor. 5. Use the food tracker on my IPad.  Track what I eat. All of it.  Every day. I'm making myself a star chart! Yep, spot the teacher. So I have this star chart. A star if I Exercise for at least 30mins a day, Use my small plate, No alcohol Monday to Friday, No afternoon binge, coffee and fruit, Finish my water bottle everyday, Use my food tracker on my iPad, Small bowl of chips only on Saturday and Sunday only, Gym class 3x week. I get a star in each box for my achievements. So my first goal is to finish a week, with a star in every box. I've printed out 4 weeks of my initial change star chart (which by the way is going on the fridge) I'll reasses my statements after the four weeks. I'm also going to do a measure. Bust Waist Hips Thighs Upper arms This will be the only numbers I'll record. No scales. I will not weigh again until I'm successful. I know I'm successful when I'm in size 10 Jeans. xxx Rach

My TRUE motivation and Getting real (er)

I want to be slimmer because I'm sick of feeling like I look good when I go out, then capturing a glimpse of my self and realizing how fat I am. Then my night is ruined. I want to be slimmer, because I want to look elegant. I want to be slimmer because I want to wear my belly dance costume in public, without hiding behind my veil. I want to loose weight because I'm sick to death of the constant yoyo dieting. I want to lose weight because I'm getting older, and I want to look as hot as I can as a woman nearing my forties. I want to be slim so I don't sweat in summer I want to be slimmer so I can wear dresses. AND size 10 Jeans.... Soooooo.... I'm shallow. I always Tell people what I should say, I want to loose weight to be healthy -puke- I don't give an arse about being healthy. I just want to look hot in my Size ten skinnies. Bad Bad Bad (but honest) Ok, get real time now Rach. You've a gym membership. You've a family that supports you. You've a son that is old enough to be home alone while you exercise. You've the money to invest. You've a job you can leave early enough to work out. So why not?  Scared of failure?  Self sabotage?  Lazy? I'm running out of excuses. Just Fucking Do It JFDI  JFDI dickhead :)

I'm back

Tail between my legs
Complete fail
Three legged race without a partner
Numnut
Dingbat
Stupendous idiot

I failed AGAIN.

I have to take some lessons away.
I have to figure out how to do this on my own.
I need to be accountable.
I need to make whole life changes, not just 12 week ones.

I did have some moments of joy, some major success
I climbed Mt Larcom (burning 1990 cals in the process)
I'm lifting some heavy weights

But my nutrition let me down. Hell, be honest Rach, burying your hard in the sand when you were slipping is what let me down...

But I'm back.
I'm back to being accountable.
I still have a dress to fit into...

2012 Goal Four - Create opportunities to live

2012 Goal Four - Create opportunities to live

So this goal took some thinking.  I know that I want to live simpler, spend my time wisely and invest in my family doing things that make them, and me happy.  So how?

Obviously I need to make some changes, I have these plans, goals, ideals.  But in the middle of it I feel time poor.  So, I had the heart to heart  with The Ray.

I work 2 jobs.  I'm a full time teacher, and on weekends I sell Zazi skincare and makeup.  (both jobs I LOVE)  I have fitness and health goals, meditation goals and goals to spend quality time with  my family.  And 24 hours a day to accomplish them.

So, I've hired a house cleaner for 2 hours a week.  I have trouble even typing that!  it sounds so self indulged.  But i need to prioritise my time on the weekends and this solution works for me.  Now, instead of the whole  'gotta clean the house' excuse, my weekend starts fresh. 

Next I'm going to break a habit. A really bad one.  I waste time in the evening. Just because I don't want to go to bed because I have to start another day 'quicker' so I stay up - late.  I've decided that I am going to become a early riser, and because something will have to give, a early to bedder too.

“Early to bed and early to rise makes a man healthy, wealthy and wise” – Ben Franklin

The way I see it, I've nothing to loose.  Ive set these goals, C25K, fitness, simplifying, mediation, and I need quiet time to do them.  Morning makes sense.  I'm sick of the morning rush.  Imagine waking, having time to run, shower, meditate, think, make a proper breakfast, and eat it, wash the dishes, order my morning so that my day doesn't begin frantic. 

So, here it is world.  I'm going to become an early riser.  4.30am early.  Of course I'm not going to shoot for that at the start! but build it slowly.  I've set my alarm for 30mins earlier tomorrow.  So tonight I go to bed 30mins earlier too.  no more sitting up to midnight. 

Fitness wise Ive been quite happy about my week. Ive got back into the swing of the gym.  DOMS hit major on Thursday after my pump class!  Zumba has been fun, and I've booked a personal trainer for 10 weeks, Tuesday evenings at 5.45.  looking forward to that.

At the moment I'm hovering over the 'enrol' button on a local triathlon.  The swim leg has me a little scared.  Going to head to the pool in town this week to see if I sink. Its in 12 weeks time, so will be an achievable goal.  AND you are only a 1st timer once!

Food - not so good, though I am beginning to get back into my portion size thinking again.

One more goal for 2012... hmmm

2012 - Goal Three - Get fit, finish the C25K

I want to be slimmer because I'm sick of feeling like I look good when I go out, then capturing a glimpse of my self and realizing how fat I am. Then my night is ruined. I want to be slimmer, because I want to look elegant. I want to be slimmer because I want to wear my belly dance costume in public, without hiding behind my veil. I want to loose weight because I'm sick to death of the constant yoyo dieting. I want to lose weight because I'm getting older, and I want to look as hot as I can as a woman nearing my forties. I want to be slim so I don't sweat in summer I want to be slimmer so I can wear dresses. AND size 10 Jeans.... Soooooo.... I'm shallow. I always Tell people what I should say, I want to loose weight to be healthy -puke- I don't give an arse about being healthy. I just want to look hot in my Size ten skinnies. Bad Bad Bad (but honest) Ok, get real time now Rach. You've a gym membership. You've a family that supports you. You've a son that is old enough to be home alone while you exercise. You've the money to invest. You've a job you can leave early enough to work out. So why not?  Scared of failure?  Self sabotage?  Lazy? I'm running out of excuses. Just Fucking Do It JFDI  JFDI dickhead :)

Pulling this out fast, just like a band aid...

OK,

well...

Poop...

So, I put on 4.5kgs in 13 days in NZ over Christmas.

I know its an Olympic year... but hell I'm angry with myself.  I'm back to where I started R3 last year.  Stupid. Stupid. Stupid.

Confession:

Whitebait patties (2lb, 4 people), venison, wild pork roast, wild pork kranskys, trout, crayfish, Chatham Island blue cod, Roast lamb, pavlova, baked jam roll, rhubarb crumble, hokey pokey ice-cream, brandy snaps, Mr Whippy, goodie goodie gumdrops, fish and chips, ambrosia, Dixie chicken, meringues, trifle, rissoles, chocolate cake, black jellybeans, milk bottles, pineapple lumps, pickled onions, 3 bottles of Baileys, feijoa vodka (that one was all me), and we've polished off 12 bottles of red wine...

And you know it wasn't 300cal servings...

What on earth is wrong with me?  Self sabotage much Rach?  Guess what mindset lessons I'm working on this Round.

RachB
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2012 Goal two - 365 things lighter

Goal Two - Get rid of one thing from my home EVERY day this year.

So I've known for a while I have a genetic predisposition to horde (well we call it 'collect' in the Bos household). I aspire to live in a home where I have what I need, everything has a story or history. and I'm surrounded by things that have a considered place in our lives. Basically I want to stop collecting shit.

 I want to start living simply, where I am surrounded by beautiful things. But the beauty is in the considered-ness of the object, and how it enhances our lives.

I have half empty perfume bottles in my bathroom. 8 of them. I don't like the scent, some of them are really old, but I hang onto them. Why? I don't know, just because 'what if'. I don't even want to start on my makeup drawer, study shelves, or the dreaded third drawer down in the kitchen!

So this year I commit to letting go of 365 items from my home. One thing per day. AND, if I bring something in to my home, I have to give something up.

Today I cleansed my book shelves. I brought a kindle the moment they were released in Australia in an international edition. I'm an early adopter, so Sept 26 2009, I got my kindle. (I swear it rates as one of the happiest days of my life!) We had only been in Australia for 9 months, and because of our move I could only bring 15 books with me from NZ. So I haven't really needed to buy a 'paper' edition for quite a while... So today I cleansed 42 books from my shelves. I am leaving 5.

42 objects that clutter my home gone. I have already made $60 selling them on a local sales site. If I don't sell the rest, I'm donating them to the Salvation Army.

(I'm so pleased I started this goal AFTER I brought home the Royal Albert coffee set from NZ)

On another note, Pre Season starts tomorrow. I've decided this round to play the tasks to my husband and son. I'm going to try to get them to set some goals along side mine this round. A little excited to get started.

RachB

Xxx